this is the person i love more than any1 in the world....................................

jimmy!!! i fuckin love him to death!!! he is my everything!! i only new him for 5 minutes! AND I FELL IN LOVE! IM SOOOOO HAPPY HE SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!! IM NVR GONNA HURT YOU OR LEAVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~*PAYTON*~

to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~jasowitts (jason)

~emoisme (brett)

~furiousxgoerge (goerge)

~broken4life (tyler)

~dietcoke

~dxixexgxo (diego)

~xblondexemox (scottie)

~xemolife4everx (ryan)

~xxjoshyboox (josh)

~xxxmasonxxx (mason)

~theincrediblej (J.T.)

~mikeymraz44 (brandy)

~rydenrox (kayla)

~thebloodyrose (brooke)

~xxjohnnyxx (johnny)

~xkissaandfuck (isabelle)

~omightyben (ben)

~killxusxall (jaye)

~scottyboo (scotty)

~rockluver1 (daniel)

~xxtylerxintencexx (tyler)

~xjakexfucksxyoux (jake)

~xgeexyouxknitx

~heartattack690 (connor)

~xxsilentxemoxx (drake)

~mfcorb (mikey)

~queenemobitch (bre)

~xkillxhannahx (kayla aka my sis)

~*payton*~

Wow! This girl doesnt even have to make you think of what to say when you see her!

  everything about her is perfect.....

her hair....      her smile....         

                      her beautiful eyes......

just everything about her......i love you isabelle! forever! [as a sis or friend doesnt matter]

~*payton*~

Scottie, from the first time i saw your face

I fell in love.

When you said your first word to me

I melted in your kindness.

When you said yes to those 6 little words

I thought i was dreaming.

But i wasnt

It's real....

And i'm happy i'm with you.

You mean everything in the world to me.

And when you say you love me.

I feel so much better than i was before.

When i see that your online.

I get happy.

Even if im sad or mad.

You make me smile when  i'm sad.

You make me laugh when i'm crying.

You make everything better when something wrong.

I want to be with you forever.

I want to meet you someday.

I want you to live your dream.

I want you to be who you want to be.

Cry when you need to cry.

Laugh when you need to laugh.

What i'm trying to say is.........

I FUCKIN LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~*payton*~

this is for the boii i love!!!!

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(for when i say)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't breaking us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't breaking us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

i know.....it sounds gay but....i love the song and it makes me think of you...=]

~*payton*~

this song id for evan...i love him sooo much! he makes me feel sooooo good about myself....and when i am sad.....he helps me out......he makes me smile alllllll the time....no matter what.....=] here's a song for you baby!! i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                              "It's Been A While"

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

~*payton*~

here's another song that makes me think of you.......

                                    Beautiful Girls



You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do your dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over


See it started at the park
Used to chill at the dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Coz we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)


See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy



It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)



Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

i love you!!!! ~*payton*~

kayla...im really sorry baby! i love you but.......im taken....ok.....if i wasnt taken...i'd definitly be with you!! i love you and care about you alot!! i know we have had our weird and bad moments but...what the hell!! i still will always love you forever and ever ok baby!!!! your like my sister!! you treat me with allllllllllll the respect you have! and i do to!!! well....here's the song that makes me think of you when i hear it.....

                                                      "Hey There Delilah"

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

this is kayla if you are all wondering.....
she's the one with the flower!                                                                        ~*payton*~

this is my life song......

                                                      Welcome To My Life


Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life                       

yea so...there ya go...thats my life.....now.....im leaving it...FOR GOOD!! AND NO ONES GONNA STOP ME!!! i love you all!!! i mostly love tyler tho!! ill always love you baby!!! bye! plz dont forget me! you'll find a better girl someday.....=[

this is my babyboii   tyler:ill always love you baby!!!! bye!

~*payton*~